A quick update about today. Today is a tiring day. Hahas have accompany hosy to see doctor with roselynn and mervyn driving us to polyclinic and to hosy house and back to TP. After that, wait for qing xuan they all finish their jap class and some of them.. their sch stuff. Then head opposite to eat KFC.. and head back sch and then went to dance. Dance Over with fifi, vannesa and tingke as usual, and prime joined us too :D It was fun hahas. and then danced ai-ing aishiteru twice and then head back home alone.

I dont know what happening to my laptop. Because nowadays it starts up, it been telling me to do backup because of the harddisk in laptop got some problem or what failure. And just now i did transfer important stuff and also use the chance to clear some stuff in my laptop.

And while i transferring my hand phone pictures to my hard disk. I suddenly saw those photos that I took over the past few months. I kinda of miss those times. I mean I miss the times like me and fifi being close to each other and she always stick around me and call me mama. Its like now she so distance, unlike the other times. Although i still can talk to her, but not as close as that time. And like with hosy, I took pictures with her always and its fun. And now she also kind of distance away from me?! And etc.

I know lifes there is always gain and loss. I loss the close friendship with them. And although I gain more friends like qing xuan, gracia, vanessa and many more now. But still I miss the times back then.

Well, its not a bad thing. Now, i often still see them being happy and stuff, I mean, yea even if i not close to them, as long as they are happy, everyone of my friends are happy and really enjoying life, I think i am contented.

Ahh. Hahas.. I am not being emo or sad now. More like wishes those times can come back. Yeah I know mostly the cause of the change and stuff are caused by my own hand. And I know it well. So yup, no one to blame. hahas.

All right I shall change to another topic.

I have a lot of friends around me. And I have lots of different kind of friends. And among my friends, I am those that a joker but not a well joker and always kid around and stuff. So hardly anyone take me seriously. And among my friends, I know and I saw friend that are always loved by everyone and protected by everyone, especially in JCG. Yes i am talking about JCG mostly hahas.

I really really wanna be that too. I mean, I dont know how JCG people feel about me or whether they like me or not and stuff. I just feel that I really really wish to be loved and protected by them to just like those friend that are protected and loved like tingke, our dear cute fangirl president and etc. I mean yea, I see them being loved and protected, I also love them and also wanna to protect them just like the rest. But whenever I see them being loved and protected shown in action, such as celebrating their birthday with surprises and stuff, I feel happy for them and also envious them. And also thinks, "Ahh.. I wish I could have these kind of stuff happen to me" Though I know, it couldnt happen. But I wish.. really wish..

Ok lets take for example, my game friends. We are a close friends of a clan. And on a day of my friend birthday, our clan blog dedicated and wish for her. I happy for her. And thought that yea.. I wish they did the same for me on my birthday.. And on my birthday, nothing came.. I went in the blog a lot of times to check, but nothing is there.. I was kind of sad?! But I was like its ok ZH.. these kind of thing does not really will happen to u.. So yeah, was sad but I was like its ok. Hahas. And when my clan master realised my birthday is over.. like a few weeks later. He was kind of angry that he didnt know my birthday was over and did not post a post for me. When I heard that, I was kind of happy. Hehe.

Ahh.. feel like crying. I have a tendency to feel like crying out whenever I saw something deep in my heart.

Yep.. I really wish to have those kind of stuff happen to me. I wish to be loved and protected by my JCG friends.. I wisssh.. Hontou...

Am i thinking a lot?

Seriously, i feel that nowadays a lot of people is giving me these cold shoulders or this ignoring me thingy. Even in twitter and stuff. Ok i not sure what i did wrong or what?! But seriously, all these thing, I am not sure is it i am thinking a lot or what but if i did something wrong, tell me. If you guys are gonna jus ignore me or what, at least tell me straight in my face what i did wrong to make u guys do these. I dont care if its hurt me but i rather u guys say it in front of me, than giving me these ignoring thing. Do u know it hurts me more than saying the reason in front of me? If I need to, I will leave the cca, if u guys wants.. But at least tell me what i did wrong and not ignore me. Do u know how freaking hurting is it? I take u guys as friends and that what I get in return. Good job!!

Ok let me end this with just maybe i am thinking a lot. But tell me that I am thinking a lot or the reason why u guys are doing this.

Hey yo. Hahas Finally I am back again.

Now on hoilday and I am coming back to school to help out for my cca Japan's funnding. All the donation that is donated to us will be given to the Japan to help them. Currently I am using CT's laptop to blog. Hahas. Gomen LOLS.

Woo updates on my life. My result for this semester is not that good since my gpa dropped and drop quite a lot. Was quite sad about it but well positive of my result is no supp paper is needed. Hahas.

Well there are always good thing among the bad things right? So well good thing is i no need retake an paper, bad things is that my gpa dropped. Sad. Anyway, I want to say that I have got hooked with MBLAQ. Hahas. Its was a while ago news that I have officially am hooked with MBLAQ and their song. G.O and Seungho. So cooool.

Anyway this are personal updates. Next up is my relationship with friends. I have not been going to JCG meeting and events. Well reason is because of my hearing got worsen!! Yea you saw it. It got worsen i guess. My hearing since to have some moods lol. Anyway, because of that, I didnt went for any event until this Japan event come out. And I have been helping for awhile. Was quite glad that a lot of people donate. Arigato Gozaimasu. And well I dont know why but i feel that me and some people's friendship has gotten a bit of distance. Baaah. Maybe its just me but i dont know hahas.

Anyway end of updates. Hope i come back soon to post. See ya.

Hahas It been a month or 2 since i blogged. Sorry for the late post. Well to further update everyone. Alot of things happened to me during these 3 months. It is fill with down and emoness or up and happiness. Whatever hahas.

Anyway, things happened such as having feel left out in my group of cca, my dear son, hammy went for NS and etc. A lot of things happened till that i cant remember much anyway.

Well recent things such as someone giving me hope that my relationship with her's gap, after that long period, can be closed a bit. Well, I dont know if its because she does it to everyone and hence, if she didnt do it to me, it will look weird or stuff. But I did talk to her, feel like my effort in using twitter and stuff has worked... Hahas well..

Anyway feeling emo and a bit left out during going out with my cca members, even with just going to celebrate my friend's birthday that day, I was sitting at the side alone, so quiet that my friend beside me asked me what's wrong, of course I said I am fine, which of course I am not. And forced myself to smile. It was such as forced smile till when i stepped out of the shop earlier, I directly turned back to sad face and walked home slowly like incredible slow. Well this is not the only thing on my mind that day. Thing such as money problem, especially going out with friends, I always have these problems, not enough money and stuff. Hahas. Well. Whatever. Hahas.

Hmm recently saw Linda on burger king and also Jovi talked chat to me on MSN, it makes me kinda miss my friends a lot. My groups of friends, Reverandoms, My loyang family, Laomao they all, and etc. I really miss you guys a lot. It been a while since I meet you guys. I dont know how's everyone but I swear I really missed you guys.

Like reverandoms, berwin said before that the group like left only a few people and hardly people care about the name "Reverandoms" But to me, Its special forever in my heart. So even if everyone left the name or family, I will still hold on to the string of the family. I am forever part of Reverandom. Call it childish or what, But to me, It is important and forever precious.

Hahas. Time to end it and have a rest.. Night

On 30/12/2010, JCG have their first amazing race on Sentosa. Yay. These has been thought by our dear President, Jovey and Vice-President Chiou Torng. And with them, we have the planning team, which includes me, Ping, Shi Bin, Zhi Peng, Cas, Prime. We spent 2 days of going to the Sentosa for trial and planning and additional days for planning. And today is the event day. Weee

The participants of the amazing race is our dear freshies from this year batch. The purpose of this event is to make them bond and of course have fun. We have our seniors to help out as station masters. And well, the whole event starts today and its was quite fun for me. I not sure about the freshies but I do hope that they have fun.

Even though there's only a few number of people came for it, some due to unable to make it and have some other stuff on. But I glad that they did turned up for it. We did so much for them and I really hope they have fun and really bond among themselves.

It was a long day starting from 12pm to 6pm and for the seniors from 11pm to 6pm.

I would like to thanks Jovey and Chiou torng for organising this event. And the planning team that works hard to plan the stuff, the seniors for helping out for this event and also the freshies who turned up for this event.

It was an enjoyable and fun event and even the process of planning with the planning team was also fun. Even though we the planning team have walked the sentosa like 3 times, but we still have fun no matter what.

Really thanks everyone for today. ^^v Have a good rest...

I love JCG!!!

I'm back on my blog to update. Sch reopened & TPJCG Halloween is over. Next event coming up?! I think its AFA.

Anyway yesterday went out to watch Incite Mill with tingke, shi bin,ping ping, fifi, tk, hosy, yuan fa and etc. I cant rmb the name XD. Anyway the show was abit predictable, because I keep on guessing and etc. Half of the time im correct. But still I rate the movie as not bad. Hahas. Just that ending a bit .... lols. Hmm Today is public holiday so resting at home like mad. Cruz I need start work soon hahas XD. Hahas.

And well shocking thing for me on thursday is that when i go for my cds, as you know 1st can choose to drop and etc, so on thursday, on 2nd week, you will see new people coming. Anyway, what shocks me is that just nice I saw a guy sit down 2 sits away from me. And my fren li cheng came over and sit in between. And we chat and he asked the guy his name. And because I was doing my work and listening, so I heard the name is Sho. So i think ok he is sho. Hmm and continued working my work. After that that guy asked my name, and I answered him. Then the next thing I know is that he say he know me. I'm like oh Sho... That sho that allison they all knows. So I'm like lols hello and asked him how he knew me. And he say he saw me before with the Rs a lot. Hahas. XD And then the strange thing hasnt ended. Next I asked him what his course and he told me.... Interactive Media Informatics. I'm like 0.0. You are my junior LOLS. XD What a surprising life. Anyway he is my HEP classmate already Hahas...

Suprised at how life sometimes make fun of people life. Hahas. Well hahas. Hope to be able to go well with him.

Hmm Now i guess I shall take a break.. Night guys ...

Haha... Suddenly have an urge to look back at the past post in my blog.

Find some stuff funny,childish, idiotic, stupid, memorable and etc. Its quite a long blog for me. How many year has it been since I first make a blog and post a post. Hehe 2 year old blog already. Quite old... Hahas Grow up dude!!! Find that blog is really a diary where it can grow up as u grow too. You can find that many thing u have in the past might have disappear while growing up!!! Miss the past but I have to continue walking my path down the road.

Jia you!!!

And to all my friends, You guys are important to me!!! Reverandoms, Jcg family, My loyang sec family and frens and TP frens!!! Love you guys!!!

Miss Rs a lot!!! Been a while since i last see u guys!!!