Seeing the past posts that I have posted, makes me feel so different. I kinda miss the past more or less, especially those precious memories such as going to Japan with Hirouka Family/Reverandoms. We were so bonded and united like never before. Even our teacher feel that our group that went oversea is better than the later groups of people who went to Germany, South Korea and etc.

I miss everything that is precious in the past. I even miss the days I have with my friends in my sec sch and etc. Sometimes I would even think why did I do this at that moment and etc. What happen if I didnt went to this school and etc. I always think that way to feel that what I have is precious to me and I wouldnt forgot the precious moment.

There are times of sadness, anger, happiness, disappointment and etc. But no matter what kind of feeling I have during those moment, its make me want to go back to the past.

Even now seeing all my friends having their own group of friends makes me feel that maybe I'm the only one left holding on the string that is connected to the group, like Reverandoms.

Lets take Reverandoms as an example. My lovely family, Reverandoms are actually a group of more than 10 people?! but now whenever we go out, its less than even 10 people. It's quite shocking to see how times can changes things easily. I still love them a lot no matter what and I hope this family can still walk down the path for a long time.

Okay back to the topic about past, Sometimes I always thinks "Wow, I have walked a long way, a long path to reach till the now I am". Its kinda true dont you guys think so?

You see... When I was in primary sch, all I think was getting onto sec sch and from sec sch all i think was getting into poly. But I never have think that I would really get into poly since primary sch and the fact that I still can managed in this world is amazing to me. I mean, I could give up studying and etc long time ago when I met difficulty such as studies, friendship, relationship, bullying by friends and etc. But I still managed to survive till the day I am now. Its like kinda amazing to me sometimes.

Not just that, through the life I have, I began to find that I met a lot of people, a lot of different kind of people, letting me have a lot of experience in life. People who are irritating, people who are mature, people who are good in study, people who are arrogant and etc. It makes me feel that life really give me a lot of experience. And I would like to thanks all those people who make me mature. Though I still find myself a lot of loopholes and weakness, I still feel that I'm different the past me in primary sch and etc.

Weakness such as being competitive, being selfish, being an possessive guy, being an impatient, hot-tempered, and whatever negative things about me...

I know I might hurt people at times with my words and actions. Or you might feel uncomfortable with my words and actions, please do tell me if you feel that way, for I want to change. I want people to be comfortable around me and happy. That why I been asking some people to tell me what they dont like about me... So just tell me straight if I did something wrong or my action/words makes me you uncomfortable. I know I have hurt some people in my life. And I'm truly sorry about all those. Even if its a past already, I still feel sorry about it. Once I'm sorry about what I done, I really mean I'm sorry to the max that I can kneel down and say I'm sorry and I wouldnt forgive myself even if the person do forgive... So that why just tell me if I do hurt anyone with my words/actions/personality....