I have just watched a korean show called "We got married". It's a show that actors/actress/singers are being fake couple.

While watching the season 2 on 2 AM Jo Kwon and BEG Ga-In being the couple, I have envious of 2 things:

1. being a singer.
2. Have a love in your life and by your side.

Always watching music videos with all those singer singing powerfully and with feeling, I dreamt to be like them, able to sing well enough. Looking Jo Kwon and Ga-In singing together on a live radio, with their own song that they make, I feel so absorbed and really want to be a singer more. It's not just hearing them singing makes me feel that way, but when I hear singers like SNSD Taeyeon, SNSD Jessica, SNSD Sunny and etc. It does make me feel that way too. In fact, when I performed for COL in seconday school, standing on the stage and performing, I feel enjoyment and liked it a lot. But due to my hearing, I cant really hear the difference in pitching and etc. And also due to my terrible voice, this will just be a dream forever.

Watching at how they are together, like Jo Kwon surprised Ga-In with the motorbike he borrowed and bring her to a place she wants to go in Christmas time and seeing how loving they are together, I really want to experience the feeling of loving someone and being loved by the one I love. I will be willing to do whatever the one that I love says. But I have no good qualities that girl would like, neither have the good looks, it seems like a dream to me.

I still like her but I doesnt know how she feels about me and neither do I know when can i be by her side, holding her hands and walk down the street together.

I'm so envious of those singers in We got married to the max.

This will be a dream to me. And these dream will stay as a dream.

My heart is crying alone...