Hey ya!!!

I don't know if anyone know but I'm feeling a bit down nowadays.

It's because of my hearing. Ever since i'm in sec school or somewhere there, my hearing is bad and now is a bit worse.

Recently, about this week, my hearing is abit worsen. In fact, in the room, I can hear the air-con more than the sound of my classmate & teacher. And this causes my studies to begin to fall. Well, It's like i cant hear what the teacher saying or my friends, hence, causing me to pay attention much.

To me now, even if i think, If im unable to hear one day, it will not be a surprise for me.

But upon leaving my last class just now, I suddenly feel like crying while walking with my friends, Cynthia. Carol and Carolyn, to the bus stop. I don't want to lose the ability to hear my friends voice or even the enviroment. But i didnt cry, of course. I don't want them to worry. So when we reach the bus stop, Cynthia noticed that im quite emo cruz im so quiet. Then i just chat with them normally, trying to make like i'm ok.


After that, when me and carol leave cynthia after alight from the bus, and before boarding the bus, we left carolyn, I want to tell carol.But I dunno how.

End up i call her just now when i left her, and told her....

I dunno what to do. But I will try my best to continue my life as normal and I wouldnt be seeing a doctor atm. Cruz first i have no money to go alone, second, if i were to ask money from my mum, she will worry. I dun wan my family to get worry of me anymore.

So i kinda thinking of saving up and go and see doctor alone.

So now, if i didn't hear you calling me or something, please do not get angry at me. It's not that I don't want to respond to you, but rather I didn't know and please help me for my studies.

But it may because of some stuff like ear block or something.*Just something to convince myself now and people around me* So don't think too much now....

Thanks....

I guess i will be self-thinking later myself. Sort of thinking solutions and ways.

Guess i will cry a bit to forget the things and be myself again tmr.

Bye.