Today is suppose to be a great day because she is going to come to TP to meet me and cynthia and doreen. After seeing my french result which is terrible, but i get to talk to and know David and WeiHeng, I went to buy straws at bookshop. Just nice, Carol finish her CDS and she also want go book shop. End up both of us going together. I want to buy straws for making heart to put inside the box with my present. I ended up buying 2 packets of red straw and Carol bought her material for her model.

We went back to concourse and I started making hearts with straws. Carol saw me doing and she suggested me putting paper with message into the heart. And of course I did and she was proud of suggesting that because I was so embassassed in writing it and had declined in doing so. But I did follow. And Carol went to ask Haikal, Cynthia and Carolyn about whether is it touching or not by doing the suggestion. Well they agreed and I end up doing it.

I had my whole hand fill with red colour dye due to the red straws. But I have much fun in making it and of course, I wrote everything and do everything. Then there's people selling chocolate and so on. They came to us and ask if we want to buy. And Carol, Carolyn and Cynthia were like "hey buy la for her..." Then of course I did.

After finishing up everything, we went to ITAS and just nice she called me while the rest are buying. She came to TP with her bro and I finally saw her bro hahas. She still look the same and of course, I was shy when i talk to her. I couldnt give her my present due to her bro is there. And she gave us a bag of snacks and keychain. I was so happy about the keychain. It meant a lot to me. And when the rest finish eating, we went up and have fun playing with cards. And when her bro left with his friend for a while, the 3 Cs (Carol, Carolyn and Cynthia) went to toilet together. And i gave her the present with the chance. Quite happy and embassassed in front of her.

After that, Doreen came and we also continuing playing our cards until the 4 of us have to leave for class 3 for ANP retest, 1 for CDS. And she left with doreen. We went up and listen to Mr Rick but we dont have any test at all. We waited for Carolyn to come back and we left together. And from we left the class until to I took the bus with Carolyn and Cynthia, I have this feeling of I lost something but I dont know what is it. And I thought I checked everything.But I was wrong.

At the bus, I suddenly notice that the keychain she gave me which i put on the bag is missing. I was so worried and sad. I look in and out of my bag and I couldnt find it. I even called Malia and they helped me to go back and find. Thanks Malia, Hafiza and whoever helped. But they cant find it too.

I was so depressed and angry, even now. I am still angry at myself that I could wish to die. It so disappointing and furious. I hate myself for losing it. I wish I could find it back. I want the keychain. It's so precious to me. I hate myself. Angry at myself. What a bastard I am.

Sorry to her and I'm really hate myself for losing it.

Bye... I'm depressed