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Sunday, November 22, 2009
Let me update about yesterday.I wanted to update yesterday one, but end up too tired that i forgot. I went online about 2am yesterday and razi msn me about whether wanting to go and send amanda and carel off. So i agree and we met up at 5 and take a bus to the budget terminal at around 5 plus. But sadly, our surprise was unsuccessful as amanda found me when i was buying mac for breakfast. Dam unlucky but still glad to be able to send them off. Have a chat with them.. Then sending them off, me and razi head back to tampines and go to gym. My first time going gym... I went to train there with razi and met Jia De there. Lols i was kinda shocked hahas. Anyway, train for an hour or two.... Quite tired and intended to go for afa with the jcg member but end up didnt cruz need to pay 20 buck for the entrance fee. Argh. Whatever and head back home and sleep like mad. Well one thing happened is that razi was making fun of me while we were talking on the way. He remembered the day when the hirouka was having ice breaking games and there was this game where u have to find an adjective with the same letter as your name and say it together, like Friendly Furqaan or Amazing Amanda. And cruz i cant find an adjective with the letter Z, so i have to head for C. So i say Crazy Chan Zhen Hong... Let me remind you guys, I have no choice but to choose that. And end up it turned out to be a funny thing for razi now. He keep on saying it. But to me is was so embassassing. I cant believe i have said that. I swear it torment me. And he keep making fun of me using that. Arghh... Forget it razi... Forget that part of me. It was seriously embassassing. Gosh. Forget that part, razi and the other member of the reverandoms. Dont remind me of that. Anyway i woke up today with my right arm painfully. I cant even bend my arm now. And i kinda have some problems with financial problems regarding about my appointment tomorrow. It was because my asshole father went to gamble again yesterday and end up no money. I cant believe what an asshole guy he is. He can just go gamble everytime with the punishment of having no money. I feel like killing him off. Seriously, if he were to die, i wont care at all. Rather my life would be better without him. Everytime, when we find he missing, we knew what coming sooner or later and he will call us for money to come back home. I hate this freaking father of mine. When can i get away with this life of mine. I really feel like theres no hope or any improvement in my life. Cant he just learn and get away with the gambling. Cant he just freaking know how painful is my life or even the family. Do he know how painfully is it to be always be having financial problems cruz of him. Just because of him!!! I actually can live a peaceful and not poor life. But because of him, theres no money in my bank. Because of him, we are so poor. Cant he just freaking understand us. And he claims that we are always using alot of money. But the fact is who is using more than us. Hundred plus dollar comparing with ten dollar plus?! Which is bigger!! In fact, if he were to think a woman is working for the family more than than him, do he still have the face or the cheek to be the house of the man. I hate being poor... I hate being a burden to my friends.... I hate my life... Another things that is in my mind other than my ear problems is someone. Someone who is my good friend among the class. She seems to be getting farther and farther away from me. Like the relationship is getting more and more terrible. I guess its cruz of me. Even though i went to ask her if its my fault. but she claims that it wasnt me. Whether it is because of me or not. I just want to say I'm Sorry if i have hurt you or I have make you angry or upset. I wish we can go to school together again. Miss the times going to school together. Guess I will be emo for a while but i will be fine in front of you all. Bye I killed a Hollow at 10:56 PM |
Name:Shiro, Zhen hong Age:14/4/1992 Loves Friends Music[Japanese] Anime[Japan voices, not dubbed with English] Manga Games Books Japan
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