Hello
Today had a tough time
Morning at last i saw My nu-er and ahgong and mei
HAHA
the previous day they nv come to sch cruz no exam(ah gong same as me la)
HHAHA
at least today manage to see them
Den went to parade square and i found out something
I NV BRING MY ENGLISH PAPER AND NV DO CHINESE
lol i was rushing through to get it done
And my english...Teacher nv found out
At last finish chinese hand up to Meiting
Sianz she dont let me copy >.<
Den physic lesson...
I HATE IT
STANLEY CHOW KEEP ON POKE ME
FREAK SO PAIN AND ITCHY
and den on chemistry lesson
SHU KIAT ALSO DO IT
ARGHHHH I HATE IT
>.<

IT KILLING ME
anyway not bad la the school
Den go find allison
And went to foyer chat with her
We tok about the hiroshima trip and korea meeting lol
Seems that japan trip is better haha
Anyway tok to ms melissa also
She miss it tooo
And ya OUR PRESENTATION MS MELISSA SAY WILL HAVE ONE
but after my graduation haiz
But i can come back for it
She say will message us graduating students

Den after that i go fan miss allison tan another allison= =
she teaching zhangxiang english lol
Den go fan until she veri du lan haha
Then return back and chat with allison
Then we say that must cry for the trip's memories
HAHA den when allison left
Ms Heng came down at last lol
i wait very long but nv touch amath while waiting
ALL THE WHILE CHATTING ALLISON
LOL

fun sia
Ms heng teach me amath manage to understand

Den when go home emo le
SIANZ
my sis gonna nag at me again if she saw me use com
Cant she jus let me use a while
It not like i nv study
i study in school or outside she also say i nv study
i stay back for tutorial she also say i nv study
Den she always say wad stupid like she very clever like that
AM I A ROBOT
so sianz
wish i can go to japan and nv come back to sg again
What the point of staying when one have so many problems and tough memories in this country
Currently im fine when i tok to my friend
But i still has the same problem
I just always thinks of it no matter wad
It kinds of whenever i saw people like my classmates and friends
I just will rmb it
The things is i just dont want people to think im weak or wad
ESPECIALLY YESTERDAY LIKE THAT
IDIOT PPL JUS KNN AND COME DISTURB ME WHEN IM SO TIRED AND SLPING IN SS
KEEP ON THROWING ERASERS
ARE U ALL AN IMMATURE KID OR WAD OR NV PLAY BE4 ISIT
I HATE PPL DISTURB ME WHEN IM DOING SOMETHING
ESPECIALLY WHEN IM ASLP AND SEEING ANIME AND MANGA
I HATE IT
IM SO ANGRY UNTIL I REALLY GOING TO EXPLODE
AND WHEN I EXPLODE i will just lost control of myself
and wan to shout and yell and hit that person

I managed to hold it
But the feelings is unbearable
My body is burning and heart is pain
I feel agitated and really i dont understand WHY THEY DONT UNDERSTAND ME

I REALLY VERY TIRED OF THIS
REALLY TIRED
IT NOT LIKE I DONT WANT BELIEVE IN FRIENDS ANYMORE
BUT WAD THE POINT REALLY WHEN THEY KEEP ON LIKE THIS
ALWAYS MAKING ME ANGRY AND UPSET
I REALLY HATE IT

AND I SWEAR IM NOT ATTRACTING ATTENTION AT ALL
I REALLY FEEL TERRIBLE AND TIRED...
EVEN NOW IT O LVL COMING
IM STRESSED UP
AND MY FAMILY ALWAYS QUARREL AND STUFF AND I HAVE FINACIAL PROBLEM
AND I ALREADY VERY TIRED AND HEADACHE UNTIL LIKE MAD AND
YET IN SCH
THEY WONT EVEN LET ME OFF
I REALLY FEEL HARD AND TERRIBLE
I HOLD MY ANGER BUT THE ANGER CAUSES MY HEAD PAIN AND HEART PAIN
LATER ON
i message basthian asking him whether he will punch me when i explode infront of him
he says dont know and dun wish to do so
But how i wish he punch me
I RATHER JUS FEEL PAIN FROM OTHER PPL DEN HOLDING ON TO SO MANY BURDEN

I may look happy and all that and kid around with you all
But im tired and sick already in my mind
I had been walking the road alone and it so hard to walk
I rather im dead
Swear...
I rather die and reborn to Japan
I rather leave den staying and continuing this journey
SO stressed and tired
Tears always come down whenever im alone
Im weak and idiot and stupid and irritating and so on
But wad i wan is only ppl's concern and care and ppl around me being happy
That's why i let u all tease me and all sort of things
But it not easy to take it easily
when i have doing it for so many years
Jus kill me off
I rather a car just hit me when im walking
and no one will care also
So dead is the better isnt it


Oyasumi nasai
Dear friends
Im sad and tired
Yreg