hi everyone.... today...i feel like a breath of wind which can turns to a tornodo one the spot...haha quite extreme huh but it true....i was very calm and relax and try to smile and be happy.....until after school, when i was talking to doreen and cynthia, they were like wad ever and i am going to explode on dat spot itself but i didnt cruz i control, i bear i bear... no matter what i bear....later on my heart still filled with the explosion which can burst out loud.....den after dat when i having my chem tutorial and i sit with shu kiat and cynthia...again...they like wadever la and i also going to explode....i feel very painful and my heart is very pain also cruz i nid to bear it....i am tired reali....I really tired and stressed up with the problem....and one of my friend had some problem which makes me worry tooo.....i am going to go mad....U noe wad when i look at the pictures in hiroshima....i miss them and i cried nearly.....my heart hurts a lot....true...i noe its true... i can onli be a loner wolf walking alone in the winter.... friends are very hard...hard to understand me and noe me....what i wan wad i hate...and wad i dun wan to see....ya maybe they care for me sometimes...but the times of me being upset and angry and emoing was more than that.....den after when shu kiat and cynthia wadever to me....i jus silence and do my own stuff and went back home alone...when i take bus, i saw the skies....the pure white, blue skies turning black....i dunno y i jus feel like going to there....i tink cloud is better than being a human....why am i born....i rather im not born into this world....it would be better than suffering now...yes, i did not regret choosing this school...yes, i did not regret going to 4e1...but i dunno why, is it my fate, my destiny to walk this path...this path for 10 years?.....friendship, relationship, classmates, studies,worries, being despised, being alone, like her or not, tiredness, family's problem, o lvl, poly, future....all this things are like a burden to me....so heavy so heavy until i wan to rest...i wan to stop...stop going on....sick of it sick of the unfairness in the world....wad did i done to deserve this....no one really understand and knows me......Really i want to go for the hiroshima meeting...i wan see t he hirohima friends....when with them...the joy and happiness the laughter all there...the stress, the problems and the tiredness..Gone....Thank you...Hirouka-san..minai..on the day of sentosa..although many ppl nv attend it...I really have funs....really i will remember the days and forever...everyone...i really wan to be with u guys...i dun care an minutes or an hours or second...at least it fun......I will try to continue walking on....dun worry jovi,yvonne , yunfang, celeste, sara. priscilla, alan,wanqi and many more....who cares about me...im fine...im jus reali tired to bear it in...REALLY it painful and tiring...i wish to throw my anger out...but i dun wan to throw it on to anyone...so onli things i can do...is to blog...I will be fine though i am crying now....crying about saying all those stuff...SORRY AND THANKS YOU FOR LISTENING.....may u have a nice day... sweet dreams to u all...nitez....may the stars watch u silently....

Here is a pic of the team went out...to sentosa...first outing.....Thanks Carel for allowing me take the photo from ur blog....thanks...and i realii have fun....hope for the next outing come out.....THANKS....